Sunday, June 25, 2006.
3:05 PM
Ytd go and cut my hair in the afternoon then at night hubby come to batok then we go 1 head to study.... Before study we go and walk around then got pasamalam.. then i call ting tell her that there got sell the bag that we like.. lol then ting rush down from yew tee mac to batok jus to buy the bag.. Then mi bring her to go and buy.. Then she keep on asking mi to buy... lol haha.. then i also buy.. she lent mi $10.. thanks you ting.. my jie mei.. Then later at night , daddy call mi tell mi the he bought the phone liao.. Omg .. i got new phone le. !!!! YEs!!! so dam happy.. then at abt 10 plus..close to 11pm daddy come and fetch mi home, hubby also come to my hse... HAha.. then he send mi song all this.. then stay till abt 4.30am then go home.. haha... so fun.. mid night mi, hubby and my sister watch dvd together.. haha then after watching finish hubby go back le.. today i am so happy..
Saturday, June 24, 2006.
12:40 PM
hai.. ytd got the worst night.. ytd afternoon mi and hubby go westmall to study.. we study at burgerking... then later hubby felt sick and i forget to bring my jacket which making mi cold.. then we walk around at westmall and decided to go to my hse downstair to study.. when going home i pass his a letter.. which is a letter of my problems.. Just to let him know..
But i nv thought of blaming him for anything.. But then hai.. things dun expect as wat i think.. i though he will say nice words to mi sort of conforting mi.. But. he blames himself for all that.. and we became nth to talk abt.. i dun wan it like this.. he keep saying that he is a useless person.. i dun think so..all the problems is because of myself.. my mind think.. nt because of him.. even he blame himself i also will not get the thing out of my mind.. realli.. i dunno y.. i just like that... jus wan to share my problem with someone and but making it worst.. oh goshes.. who can help mi?
Hubby dun worry i will nv say the worst word that u dun wish to hear to you.. i promise,, as long as o level is over, everything will be over.. jus let mi be wat i am not.. sorry.....
But i nv thought of blaming him for anything.. But then hai.. things dun expect as wat i think.. i though he will say nice words to mi sort of conforting mi.. But. he blames himself for all that.. and we became nth to talk abt.. i dun wan it like this.. he keep saying that he is a useless person.. i dun think so..all the problems is because of myself.. my mind think.. nt because of him.. even he blame himself i also will not get the thing out of my mind.. realli.. i dunno y.. i just like that... jus wan to share my problem with someone and but making it worst.. oh goshes.. who can help mi?
Hubby dun worry i will nv say the worst word that u dun wish to hear to you.. i promise,, as long as o level is over, everything will be over.. jus let mi be wat i am not.. sorry.....
Thursday, June 22, 2006.
10:13 PM
Today go to yew tee mac with liting, won , june, juan then later hubby and seng leong come.... then mi study poa... but hai.. till half way no mood to study..... Hai.. then suddenly heard the news tat mrs chui is leaving in july..... Pls dun go.. or else mrs liang will have to take over.. mi and mrs liang now like having a thick wall between.. everything because i with st together... then now my studies suck. my math and poa flunk badly.. hai.. today at yew tee mac saw ping sian and neo wei.. the feeling was arHghgh!!! dunno y.. they was like so dam good in study... hai.. now if my math and poa got problem also dunno wan to ask who... hai.. hubby lei.. seriously his studies also not so good... hai.. then i be with him also dunno weather am i harming or helping him.. going stead with him is good to him or not???? can anyone tell mi?
Mi now suddenly feeling lost.. hai.. lost study, lost teacher, lost a person to guide mi, and going to lost hubby to him friends..... feeling like crying now.. but can't.. everyday come back, always hope to be alone in a room but.. my sister always there... wan to study quitely also cannot.. wan to cry also cannot.. i am so confuse now.. so sad... worry abt my studies, my math and poa... How am i going to do poly? my math and poa is the most important subject!!! when come to question also dunno who to ask.. friends also mi also dunno how to do.. and those friends around mi also not A math student.. hai.. wan to have tuition but can't.. parent say no $. everything i have to settle by myself... i wan to cry out loud.. realli wan to cry.. i wan to shout it out.. dun feel like going home everyday and everynight.... can i talk and trust anyone to say out all my feeling.. dunno y i can't talk to hubby. realli.. cause got some thing i can't say to him.. how, wat am i going to do.........
Mi now suddenly feeling lost.. hai.. lost study, lost teacher, lost a person to guide mi, and going to lost hubby to him friends..... feeling like crying now.. but can't.. everyday come back, always hope to be alone in a room but.. my sister always there... wan to study quitely also cannot.. wan to cry also cannot.. i am so confuse now.. so sad... worry abt my studies, my math and poa... How am i going to do poly? my math and poa is the most important subject!!! when come to question also dunno who to ask.. friends also mi also dunno how to do.. and those friends around mi also not A math student.. hai.. wan to have tuition but can't.. parent say no $. everything i have to settle by myself... i wan to cry out loud.. realli wan to cry.. i wan to shout it out.. dun feel like going home everyday and everynight.... can i talk and trust anyone to say out all my feeling.. dunno y i can't talk to hubby. realli.. cause got some thing i can't say to him.. how, wat am i going to do.........
Wednesday, June 21, 2006.
10:41 PM
Feeling bored... DUnno wat to do and suddenly thinking of him.. Think of the days we were together.. how we spent all these yrs.. We had lots of quarrel and disagreement... But he still give in to mi.. I admit sometime i was so unreasonable... hai.. sometime we can be so well till everything that happen is fine to mi.. But once we quarrel.. everything went wrong too.. Remember the day at bangkok.. hubby fall a sick. hai.. make mi so worry.. Everyone was worry for him.. mi too.. But lucky is over.. He was my first stead that spent time in overseas.. So happy and feel lucky.... i love you.. and promise to be with u forever...
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10:02 PM
Today need to went to for math remedial.. Feeling boring and tired.. Math start at 3pm.. so late.. onli mi , june, brigid, sab, nurul, jasline, sl and van in my group... Meet brigid and june at school bus stop at 2.45pm.. Walking up the road was dam tiring.. The sun shine so brightly on mi and i am eating my mama monster tibits.. haha... Went to my class, onli saw sab and nurul.. Then later mrs chui came.. She bring us to the teacher lounge to study.. Haha.. so air-con.. so good.. she had highlighted and perm her hair.. The hair is nice but dun seem to suit her... Looks more like aunty.. Then later on mrs liang came in to talk with mrs chui.. Hai.. the monment i saw her dunno y i am feeling down.. hai... got a feeling that she dun quite like mi.. especially mi with st now.. hai.. and those words she say to st on parent meeting day, seem like refering to mi.. Then they all the way keep talking abt tml camp.. Mi and june have nth to talk to them as we are not involve in the camp.. Make mi feel so extra=( Luckily end early.. Today ended at 5pm.. haha.. go back watch dvds with my sister and slp.. Tml still need to go yew tee mac study..
